"Finding" myself

Summer 2012 has been off to a great start; I haven't seen a morning before 10 AM and I've been able to find at least two good movies on Starz each day. Well, today I had to wake up at the ungodly hour of 8 AM, EIGHT! I knew I would never wake up this early on my own so I made sure to open all the blinds in my room and set multiple alarms. As I peeled off the sheets and pried open my eyes this morning, I tried to hide from the taunting sun as I fell into some clothes and drove to Hall McCarter an hour early for church.

A good friend of mine wanted me to go to a bible study with her; I agreed to it. My first thought for this was that there are plenty of things I want to prepare myself for before I go into my freshman year of college. There's lots left for me to learn and I want to be well equipped. As we read through 2 Corinthians 5 I realized that I'm not going to college to "find" myself (2 Cor 5:4). So many people go into college waiting for other people to tell them who they are, God has already told me who I am, at least who I need to be now. I'm two steps ahead; it's not about becoming who God has created me to be, it's about making room for what else He has planned for me to be.

There are tons of people who go into college wondering who am I, who am I supposed to be, why doesn't that girl like me, where's the party at? And there are plenty of cheesy quotes Maria Shriver and Dr. Seuss can give you about that, but all of these questions are irrelevant, because He will tell you who you are (Isaiah 30:21) but you must be prepared. No one will be there with me holding my hand reminding me it's Wednesday and I have to be at TPX at 7, my mother won't be loud on Sunday mornings telling me to put on a clean shirt, no I will have to remember on my own to clothe myself in love, kindness, and patience, as well as a clean shirt. The future holds change and change can be scary, but it can also be a good thing, I don't know how different things will be this fall but I do know who I am and what I am living for, and when I don't know where I'm supposed to be there will always be that voice behind me assuring my left or right turn.